It's your friends that make your world

[Mad'Em Fixer]

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I understand how you feel. It has been almost a year now I cannot believe it. I miss him everyday. Want to tell him so much and can't. It just doesn't seem right.

[TomTom]

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Last week I chatted with a mate on MSN who was away for a longer time and he asked me how Jib is doing....it took me some minutes before I was able to reply. I doubt the pain will ever go away. My dad is dead since 6 years and my brother since 5 and though I do not think about them daily anymore, when I think about them it's like it happened yesterday and it's almost the same when I start thinking about Steve.

[MCKat]

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I found myself thinking about what mine and Steve's relationship would be like if he were still today.. Would he still make me the care packages with the newest tunes, or keep trying to convince me that I had a future in "the scene". Would he be proud of me for my new/tech savvy ways? Would he be disappointed that I chose another path, or would he continue to razz me about my relationship? Would he keep calling me randomly from numbers I could never recognize, only to leave messages that I saved for months? Would he be on the verge of announcing the next WMC and talking me into making it happen next year?

Would he be happier, had he just held out for a few days, or made a few more phone calls? I still wonder, and will probably always wonder.

I thought that time was going to make this loss be a little less painful.. The tears don't come everytime I think of him anymore, I guess that's progress?

I just miss him..

[Shpira]

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It's your friends that make your world

[scifi pi]

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it's not been a year but my heart is still empty and with pain.

[man_who_wasnt_there]

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Truly gutted, wondered why I hadn't heard from him in ages.

Time flies and had no idea this was why.

[DancingQueen]

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^^^ Bless you indeed.

Happy New Year Jibby! You are in all our thoughts and hearts xoxo

[MJ]

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What ever you are doing tonight Steve, think of us guys when we raise a drink in your name.

Bless you man.

[DancingQueen]

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^^^I have moments like that as well, so know you aren't alone.

As I mentioned above, a week ago I needed his advice and opinion more than anything and he wasn't there to give it

Part of me kept waiting for his MSN window to sign on or my phone to bing with a text message....he always seemed to know when I needed him and was there....so hard to accept that he isn't anymore

[MCKat]

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For some reason, I have been missing him more over the last few days. His absence is harder now than it was in the beginning.. I guess the fact that it's really real, and the reality that I don't get to play "what's happening in your world" with him anymore is here. Steve was one of two people on this planet that I knew I could tell anything, and it was staying in the vault.

I hate that it still hurts..

[hulkhuss]

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^^^^^^ yeah nobody can replace him on here...
I have a set of his from 2005 in my car that I am listing to again, man he was a great dj

[DancingQueen]

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^^^yeah I did the same thing.....when needing his advice the past few days I read through old MSN convo's to help....it helped a bit, but obviously not the same.

[scifi pi]

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same here. I was looking for this remix of a Foo Fighters track "All My Life" and have always sent him an email since he was my music librarian of the sorts. i've kept his mailbox in my email app and gone back and read some of his old replies. many got me laughing again as he always made me do. he's been in a few of my dreams lately, a dark shadow in the background of a DJ spinning music - mostly Underworld remixes. HIs "big" balooka head with the headphones that I got him. I miss you man.

[DancingQueen]

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I've been really missing Jibby the past few days and craving his advice and witty comments.

Coming on this section of the forum to read the stories and look at pics and videos has helped a little....but he's really left a ginormous void that just can't be filled....missing you every day! xoxo

[MJ]

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Nice story sir. Just more evidence that Steve's freindship stretched to all corners.