taking some time out

[thebanned1]

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just clicked to something, last time i started to try my diet right i was working at the time and the shop i was going to was on the road home so i would go in there and get stuff to eat on the way home, i starting noticing all sorts of strange stuff happening around me ( can't exactly remember what exactly but i felt like i was being made to look paranoid and i started to go to another shop ( if i remember right ), i was panicking quite a bit at that point and everywhere i went it seemed to be around me, i posted on another forum about it and someone posted a thing called gang stalking and it explained it perfectly ( a systematic form of control or something like that, i think the SS used to use it to try to get people to commit suicide, probably now used as a business technique ), i remember having an appointment with the doctor and i had to leave work early one day, as i was coming up to the health center i seen everyone standing outside and i just walked passed it without going to the docs, i later found out a guy had set himself on fire inside the building, a couple of days ago i went up for an appointment at the doctors and there was an accident outside it right at the time my appointment was, again i,m going from shop to shop trying to get my diet right, it's just to coincidental that this would happen at the same time at the same time if you know what i mean, funny it's all started to happen again now that i,ve spat all this out on the forum again just like it did the last time

[floridaorange]

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Right on Dom, that's great to hear! Keep up the good work, some of these meds can take up to a year to get completely out of your system I have been told, and I believe it. Also, its good to know that you yourself are noticing positive changes, because usually we are the last ones to notice. It can take 6 months - year of consistently taking care of yourself before any obvious changes, so keep going, its worth it!

[thebanned1]

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i don't even have to watch that and i know it's true, i,m spending £3-5 a day on fruit and veg ( sometimes even less ) and feeling much better already, not ate any wheat or meat in a long time, just sticking to fruit, veg and seeds, i smoked and drank was never told that this could mess up your vit b or c levels, didn't even know those were water soluble, i,m getting out the house more since i came off my meds, 2-3 times a day something that would never of happened if i didn't stop taking them, struggling a bit though because my pinky toe on my right foot is hurting like hell, haven't weighed myself or anything but the weight i,ve lost since coming off them is frightening i just got back into jeans i bought 10+ years ago ( maybe longer ) and i had to stop wearing because the meds increased my weight

[floridaorange]

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[floridaorange]

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The American's on this board are all very familiar with everything you've been saying, we see it daily in our lives. Either at home for some of us, or when we drive through certain areas, but it is everywhere here.

[thebanned1]

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Targeted Individual?

what ?

[thebanned1]

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this whole country is driving it's self to cancer and other illnesses, i,m reading a book just now and it's telling me a lot even though i,m hopeless at reading, i didn't even know that there was arsenic in drinking water and i was drinking shitloads of the stuff, the fillings in my teeth are also supposed to be cancer causing, i made a list of everything i need to buy to try to prevent it with diet ( not even sure i can ) and it's going to cost me a fortune and it won't even last me a day ( some of it will ), i,m not even sure that i,m going to be able to afford enough to give me the recommended daily intake of vitamins, shit is scary, just look at vitamin c and then start to look at the vitamin content in fruits and veg containing vitamin c, you could spend a whole days budget on just getting enough of that in one go, like i,ve probably already said i,m probably living off more than what most families have at their disposal, place is truly fucked

[DIDI]

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"mostly peppers come in packs of 3 at a time, as i,m single and cooking for one i couldn't get through 3 and would have to end up throwing the best part of them out, it's much cheaper to buy then in packs of 3 but people just end up wasting them,"

This is one of my biggest issues !! Every greengrocer/ supermarket should sell single items. It should be law !! All over the world the numbers of homeless people and working poor are growing . The people that need the food have to pay a premium for the people who can afford to buy bulk !! They do it here too!

[harry ramsden]

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Targeted Individual?

[thebanned1]

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i,ve just been thinking about what i,ve just said and it has made me think about some of the things i did during my druggy days, we used to gather in a house and sit and smoke weed and take "coke" in front of the guys kid who owned the house, she must of seen what we were doing all the time and wondered what it was, i even remember her putting her hand in a gram of "coke" at one point, that's how stupid it was, we didn't even consider the effects on what this would do to this kid when she was growing up, it probably effected her in the same way that alcohol effected me in my childhood, by the time she realized what it was it was too late, both her mum and dad were dead due to drug abuse, her dad died of a heroin overdose and her mum died of amphetamine and alcohol abuse, i don't even want to go there to think what that girl has been through because of this and it's just struck me that we were all responsible for this in some way, we were all focusing on getting high to notice that this could of affected this kid and completely blind to it because we were all high as fuck

[thebanned1]

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all my life i grown up around people who have changed their personality as soon as they get a drink in them, seen people become aggressive on it, normally nice people become complete assholes and 2 faced, normally calm people turning to violence, it's been with me throughout my childhood right up until this point in my life, i honestly believe that is why i started off on drugs in the first place and if my life was anything to go by it could be why so many people have turned to drugs instead, once you have started to go down that route everything you have been told that is bad about them just goes out the window, you feel like you have been lied to all your life, i know what alcohol did to my childhood ( not going to go there ) and then i think about how kids these days are being brought up with people who are smoking cannabis, docile and calm all the time and loving, these kids are possibly going to grow up thinking that drugs are not as bad as they really are and if legal highs are anything to go by then the future of drug use is just going to be a scary thing to watch in the future

[thebanned1]

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can anyone help me look for info on something ( micko or someone ), look for statistics about how many people have been through the mental health system and have committed suicide, i feel like i,m being driven to it now, my dad is a retired nurse who worked in mental health for 37 years, he knows all the little techniques and tricks, he uses them all the time around me, i notice it all the time, the trouble with that is that everyone knows exactly what is happening but they can't explain how it is happening and it just drives a person to completely frustration, it's even worse coming from a family member ( every time i look at him i just hate the fucking site of him due to this and you only get one dad, if it had not been for him showing me what a complete asshole he was on alcohol i would probably have never taken drugs in the first place ), i,ve seen him come home from work with bruises and all sorts on his arms probably because some patients have been driven to violence by this technique, he just done something a couple of minutes ago ( not going to say how ) and i more or less snapped and flung a book, every time i,ve been in a ward i,ve seen normally docile people be driven to the point of snapping, slamming doors at 6 in the morning because someone was refused a paracetamol for a sore head and various other things, every time i,ve been in a ward i,ve noticed things and said things to nurses, i,ve said things to doctors and each time all the have done is answered me with a question like what are you talking about, that has probably driven more people to be medicated than it should have, sane people tortured to a point where they just snap and when they are classed as mentally ill there life is basically over

[thebanned1]

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you can only do that in the summer here as we don't have the climate and lot of people just don't have gardens and even those who do don't have enough money to buy a house with enough space to do this, houses in Scotland are pretty cheap compared with the rest of the UK though, if electricity was cheaper people would probably grow more with grow lights but as it stands it's just not viable and i,ve just said people just don't have the room to do this themselves, there is a valley close to where i live that is all green houses etc and they can only stuff when the weather is good ( not even sure if they still use them any more been a while since i was down there ), they could grow a lot of food in places like that if they could afford to pay for the right lights, electricity and pay staff at the same time but the price of everything has been driven up so much over the years places like that just can't afford to run, scotland met it's target for renewable energy well before anyone else yet the price of electricity didn't come down a dime, the place is full of wind farms now, they are all over the place, most of the food you buy now is imported from countries all over the place, places with hotter climates, by the time it reaches the shelves most of it is all going off, i went into a shop the other day and was thinking of buying a single pepper and the skin was all wrinkly and stuff and it had probably been put out on the shelf "fresh" that day, mostly peppers come in packs of 3 at a time, as i,m single and cooking for one i couldn't get through 3 and would have to end up throwing the best part of them out, it's much cheaper to buy then in packs of 3 but people just end up wasting them, eating for one is hard because you can only buy certain food this way for example you can only buy things like sweetcorn in packs of 2 or tinned ( which is all sugar or salt ), i,ll eat one piece of sweetcorn tonight and end up having to eat the same thing tomorrow, you're just as well to eat junk food because the amount of stuff you throw away is just wasting you're money and junk food is cheaper in the long run, there is more junk food places in this town than there is actual normal shops and this is a relatively small place, it's the only shops that are still alive on the main street, i think that says a lot for itself

[floridaorange]

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You'd be surprised what you can grow in buckets. I have a friend who is growing like 10 different kinds of tomatoes, in buckets.

Working outside on a project like this would be very good for you for so many reasons mate, give it a thought. Can be done very cheaply too, just gotta get creative. And btw, these types of DIY projects are one of the things I love about the internet. So many ideas and instructional videos.

more veggies that grow in buckets here: Bucket Container Planting Vegetables – Using Buckets For Growing Vegetables



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[thebanned1]

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don't have much space to grow anything