taking some time out

[floridaorange]

Re: taking some time out

Is there anyway you can spend your time online researching how to plant your own garden? In my neighborhood there is a company that will turn your front yard into a garden for you in exchange for sharing some of the yield with others, pretty cool idea IMO.

[thebanned1]

Re: taking some time out

just realized how screwed i am, just cost the system a huge sum of money to fix the repercutions of a drug problem, hospital visits, doctor appointments, medicines and money to live off ( didn't even spend any of that on food or anything till recently ) and that has probably done more damage to me than harm, mentally and physically, i still think i was sane in the first place and that has messed with me more than anything throughout this expereince, i,m not even sure if that is part of the mental health problem i was diagnosed with, the govenment stopped the biggest part of my benefits, i,m now living off less than £200 a month, when that money goes i,m basically messed up, i've been out of work since 2008 and even jobs like cleaning jobs are now looking for people with experience so i know that when that money goes i,m going to have to sign on for job seekers allowance and they will just sanction my payments because i,ll be unable to find a job and they will think i,m not doing enough to find work, looking for work on the jobcentre website is probably the most depressing thing i,ve done in the past couple of weeks, this whole area is screwed, i,m lucky, i still live at home so i have food to eat if that wasn't the case i'd probably have to start living off food banks, food that is basically given away by the public and collected by charities and given out to people who are in need, that's a case of take what ever you can get, not even any fruit or veg, when this happens i,m basically going to end up back in the health system at one point and cost it more money as will many other who are already in the same position, it's basically the future for a lot of people who are in the same boat, it's becoming quite alarming the amount of people that are going through that right now

[thebanned1]

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it would be easy for these companies to start slipping something into the pills un noticed that causes other diseases, something cancerous for example, something that harms you're liver, wrecks you're bones, just about every health complaint you could think of could be targeted this way, no one is checking it a the point of sale, even if they were checking they would still need to go to the same companies for the chemicals they needed to check

i,ve probably just committed suicide by saying all this ( and i know i look paranoid and delusional )... it would be easy for companies to kill someone like me and make it look natural, these guys know exactly what they are doing

[thebanned1]

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i was reading up on the side effects of the medication i was on last night and i read that alcohol can increase the side effects of the drug, i,m not sure now if i was told this or not when i was first put on it ( i probably was but i can't remember that far back ), if i was i was telling my doctor i was drinking all and they never thought to tell me about this, my cpn even saw me in the super market buying 3 packs of ten beers and they never even thought of reminding me about this, i,ve probably hurt myself more due to this and not even realized i did it, if i hadn't had the internet ( like a lot of other patients who have been thought it and prescribed the same medication ) then i would of never found out about this and by the time i did find out it was too late, i,ve probably said this before but it's like they tell you drugs are bad etc and then the patient thinks the only option is too go by alcohol, i still say it's a trap, when i was going to the chemist i started to notice that every time i would go for my pills they would come from a different manufacturer all the time and i just sussed this morning that this could of been suss as an overdose of the meds i were on is dangerous, i know how this is going to look but they could of been increasing the dosage in those pills all the time and no one would of been checking what was in them before they were handing them out, it would be so easy for companies that make the pills to do this to cause damage to the body to profit from future health problems that arise due to this and make it look like a natural thing or blame it on alcohol or bad diet, it would be that easy, i feel like i,ve just been murdered for profit... my bones are all cracking and everything, feet all bent etc so my future is probably pain medications etc and that is scaring the shit out of me because no one thinks about what is in the pills before they take them and they could gradually increase the dosage to get people addicted more, just look at how america has a big problem with people addicted to pain meds for example, someone is profiting from that big time, i remember back when i was a drug user people started breaking into pharmacies for either valiums or temazipam and they started to tighten that shit up fast, i often wonder where drugs like this come from that are on the street, it's like someone is putting them out deliberately to profit from them and at the same time increasing people's tolerance to them so that if in the future they are prescribed the same types of medication they have to give them stronger and more expensive treatments

[DIDI]

Re: taking some time out

jdownloader made it easy, 200 or so sets from the same dj in one sitting, people are hoarding too much stuff and buying nothing, it's easy to make someone sit on their arse all day and keep them entertained for a long time,free films and music all day long and sitting on the internet all day, it's killing people hard, it's probably affecting people in colder climates more because they don't want to go out in bad weather and when you get used to it it's a hard cycle to break, the computer has everything you need to keep you entertained for a long time, it's a death trap, i,ve spent the last 20 years or so doing nothing but sit at a computer simply because it kept me happy for a long time, fed me music, gave me people to talk to, helped me be creative ( not any more though ) and everything i needed was in one place, it was as easy as getting up in the morning and switching it on, instant entertainment, even office jobs are fucking up people, they are sitting at a computer all day working using computer programs all day

so many people do it, they are an easy target as well, look at how much wrong information is out there on the internet and how many people turn to webpages for their main source of information, it's easy for people to writer pages on things like diet and health style that are wrong and cause all sorts of health problems in the future, people know exactly how to target people like this, if you think about it all the info i,ve put out on the internet over the years is frightening, telling people i,ve been smoking, telling people i,ve been doing drugs, it would be so easy to kill or hurt someone like me and make it look like a natural occurrence, it's easy for them to blame it on an unhealthy lifestyle and blame health problems from things like lack of exercise, you can't really trust anything on the internet and even .gov pages etc are a bit too complicated to understand so people go for information that is easy to read and understand, it's probably killed so many because everyone believes all the stuff they read and people are writing other pages based that info themselves without being able to confirm if that info is correct or not, in all the time i,ve spent on the internet i,ve never really found one web page i could honestly say i could trust fully, it's just so easy to trick people into believing that everything you read on here is right, people were going through degree's ripping info from the net, no one can verify or not what they are reading is true or not, it's just screwing up everything... look at how popular conspiracy theories are becoming, it's like half the world population is starting to believe all that stuff, it's making the whole world a paranoid place to live, it's one thing that is driving the world to destruction, the internet is just a deadly place, nothing is safe, you can't trust no one, look at how long i,ve known all of you guys and i,ve never even seen any of you're faces except in picture on facebook and there is not even any way of confirming that is actually the person behind the keyboard, you guys could be pedophiles or anything ( please don't take offence to that i,m just using it as an example ), look what happened to this place, it was hacked, the code is still fucked, for all you know the hacker could of grabbed all you're IP's and set you up for all sorts without you even realizing it was done, some of us could of been sent to prison an innocent person or anything, you used to be able to switch your router off and switch you're IP address in about 20 seconds but now you have the same address for years at a time, anyone could be doing anything to your computer and you would never know especially if you're downloading all the time, that's getting dangerous as hell

people are basing setting up business and stuff based on info they are finding on the net and everything, that info could be anything and doing more harm than good, in scotland there has been a sharp rise in people becoming fitness instructors etc, i know a guy who is one and he's just setting up a gym that uses ropes and stuff, one person falls from a rope and breaks their back and it's years of medical treatments, a m8 of mine does body building, he uses all sort of protein shakes and other stuff, all he's doing is just making himself fat and over working his body in the gym causing problems with his joints and other things like cartridge and causing other sorts of problems associated with his weight, i,m not saying these guys got that sort of info from the internet but really where else would you find out things like that ? from a book in the library ?

the internet is just getting deadly

brother are you ever preaching to the converted here!! So much of
what you say here rings true. I do love the internet but It can be such an isolating place . You do have to so careful. .!!

[thebanned1]

Re: taking some time out

I don't disagree with you there, we are far away from being able to prescribe any kind of "fix". Doctors just give you pills and hope for the best. I really do wish you the best. I wish mental health wasnt a such a taboo topic and talked about more. Mental health facilities here are usually the first to see cuts in funding and its unfortunate.

the pills don't work, there is just so much they don't deal with, it's like watching you life pass by you and there is nothing you can do about it, the side effects just ruin your body and that is just as painful if not more painful as living with mental health, that on top of that just plays on your mind so heavily, it's like a never ending cycle of mental health problems, when i say problems i don't mean things as sever as schizophrenia i mean things like depression and loneliness to name a few, people are either going to their doctors and asking for anti depressants or they are getting high all the time to help them forget, either way it's costing the health service a huge amount of cash to deal with, psychiatric drugs are expensive and people need lengthy treatments but if you then add on the cost of treating a patient for substance abuse then you can see just how much it's costing the nhs not to mention just how much these people are paid in sickness benefits, it's costing the country a fortune and the bill is rising all the time, god knows what it cost to put me in hospital for 8 weeks at a time, 3 times...it's hard to explain the experience but it breaks you hard, you're never quite the same after that, just about everyone i,ve known to go through that system ( that i keep in touch with ) is killing themselves in some way or another, the system is just all wrong, it's like the people that created it knew exactly what they were doing in the first place, i still say it deliberate as paranoid as that sounds, honestly they are just driving people to suicide or a long slow painful costly slow death and a lot of people are profiting from that big time

[jay813]

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not impossible to fix things ? you're madder than me lol... you have no idea what you're talking about, people who have never been through it will never understand it.. the drugs are useless and cause all sort of other problems and they don't even fix half the problems at all, they just numb you to a point where you don't care any more, it completely ruins lives more than it helps lives, i first took my first anti psychotic drug in the 90's ( one course of treatment, didn't even go back for more ) and the side effects were still the same some 10-15 years later, patients would of been reporting the same side effects to their doctors for years and no one bother to change the formula or anything, sometimes i think it's deliberate, i saw someone i was in a ward with at one point the other day, guy was only a young guy and he's basically killing himself hard ( smoking cigarette's right to the filter etc ), he didn't even remember me, i had to remind him who i was, the poor guy just looked so fucked up, he couldn't even get a sentence out or nothing

I don't disagree with you there, we are far away from being able to prescribe any kind of "fix". Doctors just give you pills and hope for the best. I really do wish you the best. I wish mental health wasnt a such a taboo topic and talked about more. Mental health facilities here are usually the first to see cuts in funding and its unfortunate.

[Micko]

Re: taking some time out

I have deleted my pms - can you try again

[thebanned1]

Re: taking some time out

micko i tried to send a reply to you're pm but it says you've exceeded your limit so it wouldn't send, thanks for taking the time out to talk to me, it helped a bit, made me think about a few things

[thebanned1]

Re: taking some time out

Technology has made it so much easier to be greedy.

jdownloader made it easy, 200 or so sets from the same dj in one sitting, people are hoarding too much stuff and buying nothing, it's easy to make someone sit on their arse all day and keep them entertained for a long time,free films and music all day long and sitting on the internet all day, it's killing people hard, it's probably affecting people in colder climates more because they don't want to go out in bad weather and when you get used to it it's a hard cycle to break, the computer has everything you need to keep you entertained for a long time, it's a death trap, i,ve spent the last 20 years or so doing nothing but sit at a computer simply because it kept me happy for a long time, fed me music, gave me people to talk to, helped me be creative ( not any more though ) and everything i needed was in one place, it was as easy as getting up in the morning and switching it on, instant entertainment, even office jobs are fucking up people, they are sitting at a computer all day working using computer programs all day

so many people do it, they are an easy target as well, look at how much wrong information is out there on the internet and how many people turn to webpages for their main source of information, it's easy for people to writer pages on things like diet and health style that are wrong and cause all sorts of health problems in the future, people know exactly how to target people like this, if you think about it all the info i,ve put out on the internet over the years is frightening, telling people i,ve been smoking, telling people i,ve been doing drugs, it would be so easy to kill or hurt someone like me and make it look like a natural occurrence, it's easy for them to blame it on an unhealthy lifestyle and blame health problems from things like lack of exercise, you can't really trust anything on the internet and even .gov pages etc are a bit too complicated to understand so people go for information that is easy to read and understand, it's probably killed so many because everyone believes all the stuff they read and people are writing other pages based that info themselves without being able to confirm if that info is correct or not, in all the time i,ve spent on the internet i,ve never really found one web page i could honestly say i could trust fully, it's just so easy to trick people into believing that everything you read on here is right, people were going through degree's ripping info from the net, no one can verify or not what they are reading is true or not, it's just screwing up everything... look at how popular conspiracy theories are becoming, it's like half the world population is starting to believe all that stuff, it's making the whole world a paranoid place to live, it's one thing that is driving the world to destruction, the internet is just a deadly place, nothing is safe, you can't trust no one, look at how long i,ve known all of you guys and i,ve never even seen any of you're faces except in picture on facebook and there is not even any way of confirming that is actually the person behind the keyboard, you guys could be pedophiles or anything ( please don't take offence to that i,m just using it as an example ), look what happened to this place, it was hacked, the code is still fucked, for all you know the hacker could of grabbed all you're IP's and set you up for all sorts without you even realizing it was done, some of us could of been sent to prison an innocent person or anything, you used to be able to switch your router off and switch you're IP address in about 20 seconds but now you have the same address for years at a time, anyone could be doing anything to your computer and you would never know especially if you're downloading all the time, that's getting dangerous as hell

people are basing setting up business and stuff based on info they are finding on the net and everything, that info could be anything and doing more harm than good, in scotland there has been a sharp rise in people becoming fitness instructors etc, i know a guy who is one and he's just setting up a gym that uses ropes and stuff, one person falls from a rope and breaks their back and it's years of medical treatments, a m8 of mine does body building, he uses all sort of protein shakes and other stuff, all he's doing is just making himself fat and over working his body in the gym causing problems with his joints and other things like cartridge and causing other sorts of problems associated with his weight, i,m not saying these guys got that sort of info from the internet but really where else would you find out things like that ? from a book in the library ?

the internet is just getting deadly

[diegoff]

Re: taking some time out

so true

[DIDI]

Re: taking some time out

i,m fucking sick of this place, it's completely fucked, simple essentials needed for everyday life are getting out of the reach of everyone, simple things like toilet roll for example, the stuff every one can afford is so bad that you have to use half a roll just to wipe you're arse right once, that's all going into the sewage system and costing the system huge sums of money to process which is costing scottish water a huge amount of their budget and that is why tap water has become so shit, smells like bleach and tastes horrible because they can no longer afford to pay for the right stuff to make it pure, then you have to go buy bottled water which is so expensive and so dirty and not even filtered or anything, e coli or anything could be in that stuff, they don't even check it, most of that shit is just tap water anyway put into plastic bottles that is fucking up the planet more than anything, the water is messing with people's hair and skin and causing them to become conscious of their looks which is probably why they are sitting in front of their tv's or computers all day and not going out as much as they can and driving people to depression and all sorts of other health problems, this could be one of the reasons why all the shops in the main street are closing down, well one of the reasons and why things like internet shopping and supermarkets are becoming so big because everyone is either going to a one stop shop for everything or sitting on their arse and getting everything delivered right to their door just look at how many people have started to use home deliveries from supermarkets, it's keeping the royal mail going, i was in the sorting office for one day in my town and i swear everything i touched ,all the boxes and parcels were from amazon, that told me a lot, probably more than it should of, things like cd's were 2 and 3 quid cheaper ( including delivery ) than it would of cost for people to go out on the main street and buy it themselves, for me to buy the music i like it would of cost me a good £10 in train fair plus the cost of a cd for some music i could even listen too before i bought it, it has hit record shops hard,take virgin for example, when i was at uni i had to travel into glasgow and i was buying music from there all the time simply because it was the only place ( glasgow ) where the shops were and i was already in the city anyway, people couldn't really afford to travel into the city every time to buy things like music or dvd's and this was the only place where those shops were based because they were spending so much money on trying to live as good as they can and when the computer and internet came along piracy just got huge because everyone loves to feel good and everyone loves something for free, it's not because people couldn't afford to buy the media it was because the only places they could get it from was costing too much to get too, once you get into the habit of getting things for free then why would you bother to start paying for it again ? i,ve sat on forums like this for over a decade and downloaded so much stuff over the years, far too much stuff to go through in my life and it has damaged the scene more than anything because although there is some good music in those sets some dj's don't even bother giving you a tracklist for you the people to go out and buy the music they are hearing, the dj scene is fucking itself over big time, dj's are getting music years in advance and playing it to people and by the time the people find out the name of the song they like it all old and no one buys it, by that time people have already downloaded more music for free and have moved onto something that sounds different, there is so much choice out there and it is getting better and better all the time but the people at the top are not helping the artists by feeding people who are willing to buy the music the names of the song or artists and that is driving a lot of talent in music to move onto something else because they are not making any money from it, the scene could last a life time but it's killing itself for the reasonsi,ve just mentioned

Technology has made it so much easier to be greedy.

[DIDI]

Re: taking some time out

i,m fine m8 honestly, just sitting trying to read a couple of books on diet and stuff, finding it hard, never been able to read properly in my life so i have to keep going over and over paragraphs and sentences, can't even spell properly, if it wasn't for spell checking on my browser i would of looked a right idiot every where, i think that is part of the problem with my reading, i,ve always hated the english subject since school, bores me to death, i got through a bachelor in science without ever reading a book and got through a subject in english in college when i just about every word in my essays was misspelled can't even remember if i used word or hand wrote them now if i,m honest but if i used word i was using spell checker for just about every second word, kind of scary if you think about it

Hey maybe I can do something useful. If you want to tell me which books etc. I can summarise for you

[unkle]

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Ohh man, Sorry to hear all that. I cant say too much about it,
just, I hope you win, stay strong and watch your steps.
all the best for you buddy.

[thebanned1]

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